I honestly don't know what to do on this site right now. Too lazy even to choose a good profile picture and I don't know if I want to continue drawing or writing.
How will drawing anime-style as I intended make me happy? It's like a planet existing only in my computer and when I shut down the computer, no one I know is interested in it, me included! Anime is not my own culture, either. I'm not Japanese so, how will creating art in this genre work for me? It might be isolating me and maybe it's not the right medium for me? I could be happier if I created in my own language, about my own surroundings and deep issues and feelings I have, aka about things that matter to me.
The audience on here is honestly not my kind, either. I can't think of something more boring than pink pony pictures, some of which are having sex, etc. (If your thing is pink ponies with human attributes, enjoy! It's just not my thing.) There are a lot of psychologically troubled teens and adults here who almost adore the state they're in, mediocre computer art everyday on the front page, and worst of all, a bunch of unhappy and frustrated people ready to attack each other on comments for almost no reason sometimes...It's toxic, but this is still the only art medium I know of to post stuff on.
I'm also not good enough at art right now, not enough to drive a lot of attention to my drawings, the kind of attention enough to start a conversation. Another issue, almost no one reads stories on here, therefore I have no wish to post stories...A single handful of people like my stuff and most of the time, my stuff is not even seen. Group system doesn't work, you have to work ridiculously much to make yourself visible. It's honestly a miserable website overall!
I'll think about things. I'm still creative, just don't know how to utilize it. Will think on possible media to try, or the option of quitting, or using other sites to post things, and how creativity can fit into my life.
I wish you all the best with your stuff.